Today I Facebook I posted the following…

My life this year took me from high to low to high again but God’s grip of grace never left me. He held me tight and never let me go! As the man-ordained year comes to an end, I am grateful for the many lessons learned, the confidence gained, the boldness to expect nothing but the best from God!

I started 2009 with high hopes for my business and boy did it start with a bang. However, one thing that very few knew was that by May is was starting to wane a bit. By June I was getting just enough to pay a few business bills. I was literally wondering where my next dollar would come from. I was not in the poverty state of mind that I was in when I wrote about having a poverty mentality.

This year has been a testing on for me. I discovered that in so many ways on I am on target with what God has for me to do and in others I miss the target by a long shot. However, through it all I have been tremendously blessed.

At the beginning of this year I had it all planned out how my year would go. I was going to be Forty, Fit, and Fine.  I did reach a lot of those goals: I am about 40 lbs smaller, I did turn 40, I started caring about myself more, and I learned to appreciate all that God has blessed me with.

To know that I am worth more than rubies in His eyes so much so that He knows the number of hairs on my head amazed me to no end. Once I grabbed on to that fact… I AM WORTH SOMETHING…it changed the way I approached my entire life.

A few weeks ago, I wrote a post about what happens when fear gets its hook into you. It went over well and I am still getting emails and even phone calls about that post. There are a lot of frightened people in this world. It makes sense because these are frightening times.

Today as I was schedule some blog tour stops and book reviews for the week here at Mom Unplugged, I was reminded about a scripture that suddenly brought me peace in the midst of the fears I face.

“For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
Romans 8: 38-39

I am just going to put it plainly. I get scared sometimes; and there are instances when it is almost crippling to my entire being. I have had episodes in the past where I severe anxiety has led to sleepless nights and thoughts of death. Your mind does funny things when your body is tired.

What you thought that just because I am an encourager and motivator; and because I stand firm on my faith that I don’t get scared? Get real and think again! I am made of flesh and blood just like you.

Anxiety stems from fear and fear is simply False Evidence Appearing Real.

Read that statement one more time. Go on! Read it now because I want you to get the point I am trying to drive home.

When you are living a life that is boxed in without true freedom, you tend to do the same to God. Because of the limitations you have placed, or allowed to be placed, on your own life, you look at God in the same light. God is not like us!
God is infinite, forever, and never ending! Does that paint a better picture of the God we serve?

We are human, God is not. We cannot treat God like the buddy next door who can hang with us at one function but not the next. He is not our child; we cannot limit what He can and cannot do. He is not a cheating spouse with whom we have to build trust again. He is not the employer who treats you wrong or fires you.

God is so much more than that.