The main concept that I picked up from reading Repositioning Yourself by TD Jakes, is that in order to navigate any part of your life with success, your thoughts must be in alignment with the changes you need to make. If you try to reposition with unhealthy thoughts, you will only be blowing hot air and a bunch of fluff.

Your mind must believe in what you are doing and faith is the catalyst for the belief. Even if it is as small as mustard seed you can move a mountain.

There is not trick to making the paradigm to a new way of thinking. However, you must be aware that renewing your mind is not an easy thing to do; but if you are determined to make the change, you can. No matter how small the steps are that you must take to do so, it can be done.

Before I got married, I was such an organized individual. I had days for everything I did, a running grocery list that was basically the same, a budget, a clean house, and I was timely and never forgot. Then I married an unorganized gypsy minded man and my world as I knew it turned upside down.

My husband’s family has a serious issue with being on time and it has proven more than detrimental in my household; manifesting itself in a number of undesirable ways. I in turn just sorta gave up trying to keep it all together because the Man just knew he had it al together. I stayed prayerful and knew that eventually, it would blow in his face. I just prayed for God’s protection and comfort when it did.

As I read this book, I realize that I also need to reposition my marriage; even more so than I already have. On September 1 I will be celebrating my 6th Anniversary and I have to be honest when I say that my first few years were pure hell and I was ready to jump ship so many times.

There are many layers to the story of my life with the Man but for the sake of this post, I will only focus on the ones that I think had the most impact on why I went through so much pain.

On my journey towards a more authentic me, I decided to read Reposition Yourself: Living Life Without Limits by TD Jakes. When the book first came out, I felt a tug towards it, but I was still in a mind set of not caring much about who I was, where I was going, or what God had for me to do. I was in denial that God could actually bless a woman like me.

I was in an apathetic mode and I really was not aware until one day I looked in the mirror and said to myself, “I don’t like me. Why would God even care to do anything through me.”

Truly I was giving up on myself, my hopes, my dreams, my desires, and my drive to be that motivating force that God called me to be so many years ago. I found myself wondering where LaTara went. What happened to that girl who had faith that move mountains and stepped out on the tight rope with God as the balancing stick?

My mommy friend Jenny Decki over at Mommy Blog Reviews invited me to try out a new budgeting tool. Now I have to tell you that I am not big on budgeting tools because, well, they just give me a headache. Trying to figure it all out and in which column to put it. What if I don’t have a boat or house? How in the heck do I change that?

Many of the budgeting options available online just did not work for me so I gave up and went back to the notebook and what I could figure up in my head. When I told Jenny I wanted to give Pear Budget a try I thought, “Ohh Man! Here we go again!”

But to my surprise Pear Budget was just so simple. I kept waiting for the millions of slots to “stick this there” and “that over here”, but it never happened. So I have to say I was thoroughly pleased. Truly I was.