My Morning Revelation

Posted by LaTara on February 9, 2008

Over the past few days I have been on a roller coaster ride that nearly shook the life out of me. In the interim of all the chaos, I realized that I needed an outside source to help me balance things out a bit.

Just because I live an authentic life does not mean I don’t meet my share of difficulties. So I will be starting counseling sessions later this month as I realized that I am retreating back into a mode of depression and I just won’t go there again.

In an effort to hear from God I have been very quiet and just waiting to hear. I guess that may be why my internet was down for three days. I just needed to sit in Daddy’s lap. He has been sharing with me ways that I have left Him and ways that I can reconnect with Him.

One of those ways is through my poetry. I used to write all the time and something occurred about 7 years back where the rhyme just stopped. I could just no longer put the words to paper and my thoughts were all jumbled.

This morning while I was thinking I was reminded that one of the ways I left God was when I stopped writing; especially through poetry. And I was bathing a title for a poem came to mind; one that reminded of the fact the poetry is a part of my lifeline to God.

Rhyming Left My Soul

There used to be a time when a rhyme
Didn’t want to leave the warmth of my pen’s embrace.
A time when my heart and mind connected with a melody so sweet and tender.

Rhyming was my muse!

 

As a young girl rhyme was my door to freedom
From the chaos that was my life.
As a woman I used it as a daily therapy session
And a time to release and be me.

 

Then one day rhyming left my soul;
ran from my heart;
separated from my mind.

 

It was no longer a part of me!

 

I had lost my step and slipped futher into the abyss -
My hell right here on Earth.
The pen was no longer my friend.
It grew tired of the constant,
negative,
murmuring in my mind.

 

Rhyming - it left my soul!

 

I was not aware that
my talent,
my skill,
my ability to rhyme
Was how God connected to the
Essence of me.

 

Rhyming was a part of my lifeline to
My Father,
My Lord,
My Everything!

 

And yet I sunk lower into the abyss;
Deep down into the pit not made by me
But maintained by my mud stained hands.

 

Where was God?
Why wasn’t He hearing me?
Why oh why my God have You Forsaken me?

 

Then one day a ray of Son
touched me
healed me
delivered me from the abyss that was my hell on Earth
The pit that had
my mind,
my heart;
my spirit bound.

 

And my pen so dear and true
Came back to me
With a familiar embrace.

 

My mind cleared and I could hear my
Creator speaking to me;
Through His Word and
Oh Yes with Rhyme!

 

It came back -That Connection!

 

Now rhyming is once again one with my soul
and my lifeline to Him has awakened from it’s deep deep sleep!

 

Copyright 2008 LaTara Ham-Ying All Rights Reserved

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