Thankful for Opened Doors
Nov 21, 2007 Unplugged Moments
This year I have to say I am thankful for all the doors that opened in my life. Let me say that these doors are in every area of my walk: Physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. All adding to my truly unplugged nature.
Physically I wrapped my mind around the fact that I am 38 years old and time is no longer waiting. Shoot it never waited -I just assumed it did. All the aches I had in my body and other womanly issues were not because I had problems that I had conjured up in my head, but because I was just too…well…gosh I must admit it.
I was just plain ole fat. Whew what a confession. No really, I knew that already and had been working on it years before, but this year was different. I realized that deep down inside I was really sabotoging myself. Then I had to figure it all out.
That’s when I started my healing blog Beyond the Point of Forgiveness . I was able to see that I was in self-sabotage mode because my mindset was one of unworthiness. Wow, how wrong I was.
This is when the weight started coming off. This open door was one to the discovery that I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Mentally and emotionally, the doors sort of opened at the same time. Because I was in self-sabotage mode my thinking pattern was a little warped. Let’s just say it was so unbalanced that I could not stand up straight. I fell often.
I was trapped in the belief that my unworthiness was the reason why my marriage was failing, my weight was up, my business suffered, and whatever else was going wrong. I thought God was punishing my for my past or even my present state of being. I was a hellion in my younger years, but that is a topic for another time. So I assumed I was paying for all the wrong I did.
I could not wrap my head around the fact that I was being pruned so that my branch could be even more fruitful. I did not see the enemy wanted my mind to stay like it was so he whispered ridiculous junk in my head. Garbage in……well you know the rest.
God showed me these things and more. This open door was the one that showed me that if I transform my mind, not be concerned with the ways of the world, and lean not to my own understanding; then my every path will be properly directed.
Spiritually I had been having a battle with God for some time when it came to my purpose. I wanted it one way. He wanted it another. I also had some issues with Him because my husband, the minister, was not available. He was wrapped into God that I wondered why he even took the time to say I do. I was angry with God for putting us together.
My purpose and my marriage were not what I wanted it to be. How many of you know that God never works according to your will? He is not into the Law of Attraction, so you can’t have it your way. He is not the universe; He created it.
God show me that He is the alpha and the omega. My life was not my own, but His. It really is not about me anyway. But rather it is about His glory.
My husband was the example of how into God I once I was but lost my way when I got married. He was a mirror into my soul. I praise God for the revelation.
So I accepted the shift change and took the road less traveled in my life. A ministry about proactive change from the woman who reacted to everything and defended herself on every point she could. Why He chose me I was not sure?
This open door was the one that showed me that God never works with you in your comfort zone. He almost always call on you to take a risk and walk on that rope without your balance beam because He will keep you balanced.
These opened doors led to more opened doors. Isn’t that just like God?
My marriage is the best it has ever been. My teenager seeks God daily. My business is good. I am not rich, but I am establishing myself as an expert. My follow though effort has stepped up because I believe I can.
Oh so many open doors. Were I to write about them then I would write for days.
So I am thankful for all the opened doors because it helped me to appreciate all things in my life.
I am thankful!
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